I'm wondering if there are any other beginners that are having the same troubles I have, or tips from more experienced people. The last two or three times I've tried to make a trip somewhere to do observing I get too anxious and have to leave. Maybe it's because I've already had some strange random encounters trying to observe in Toronto during the lockdown, but a few days ago I drove over an hour out of the city to a spot, spent another 45 minutes setting everything up, and only lasted about 30 minutes of observing before I had to pack everything back into the car and drive home (I was planning on being there all night but left before midnight).
Part of me is worried about getting in trouble for trespassing or being in a provincial park after closing, but I'm not sure how much of a concern that is. Last time I was at Richardson's Lookout Point near the Ganaraska forest. No one was really there but the whole time I felt uncomfortable like I wasn't supposed to be there. Maybe I'm just crazy, I don't know... I thought I would be more excited, because I haven't seen dark skies like that in at least 15 years, and never through a telescope, but it still wasn't enough to keep me out there and the whole trip felt like a failure.
For what it's worth, I've already been to a doctor and have some 'as needed' anti-anxiety medication, but trying to observe under the influence isn't fun, and I have enough trouble star hoping as it is. When I try to google 'stargazing anxiety' all I really see are articles on how stargazing is supposed to help with anxiety, not do the opposite!
One mistake I know I made was trying to carry too much heavy stuff too far, which wore me out (Richardson's Point is uphill and I had to make two trips with a CG-5 and G8-N). I also forgot some bugspray. Besides that I'm not sure what else I could do to make things easier. Any suggestions would be appreciated.