My interest in astronomy began roughly 60 years ago as a boy of eight. It has been one of many themes in my life since then though it’s intensity has ebbed and flowed which I consider both natural and healthy. Life is a continuing adventure with fascinating experiences and learning opportunities constantly arising.
In my teens I sold my last telescope to buy a car. For most of the next decade I was obsessed with climbing, kayaking, surfing, hunting, fishing, and exploring. No telescopes at all, but astronomy wove a thread through everything I did. Kayaking alone on the ocean at night I found myself navigating by the stars. In very remote places on other continents the mere sight of familiar stars provided comfort. The stars were always there.
For a long time I did not miss owing a scope. Then one evening while bivouacked on Big Sandy Ledge part way up the NW Face of Half Dome I watched the stars emerging and found I wanted another scope. Have not been without one since and actually moved to better skies to build an observatory so I can view more with less hassle.
People often talk about astronomy as a hobby. For me, and most of us I would wager, it is something far deeper. Hard to say exactly what. My advice - do not stress about life’s non-linear path, relax and see where it takes you. As someone mentioned above, the stars will be there waiting.